So, we didnt get first.
The campus super siblings.
Both my sister & I got second. Wells,
Its okay for us I guess..
Sad huh?
Ha ha ha.
Just a difference of $20.
& I refused to go up there & collect the prize,
so I insisted that my sister to go up there.
& I laughed.
& please, Im not upset or any other thing..
Just that.. What he says really do makes sense too.

I am really really really REALLY starting to hate the new Chinese teacher.
Who cares if we all talk?
Soh didnt even scold us in the past.
I dont know lah.. Maybe we havent get used to it.
I LOVE snapping photos during Chinese class too! :D :D


Puifun's identification card. She was still Primary 1.
Cute right? It always makes us smile (: (:

The crazy ones!!
Sitting at the corner, second last frm the back in class.

Our wallets!
Mine in purple, hers in blue! =)

My PURPLE NIKE shoes! lovelove (:

UGHH!!!
Im super CHAO pissed today lah.
V V V V V V PISSED OFF.
I want it to be on Tuesday lah!
TUESDAY TUESDAY!!
Grrrr.. I have my own reasons k?
& when I came out of the kitchen,
I was talking to you,
NOT THE WALL.
& dont talk to others when Im talking to you.
I could barely hold my anger any longer,
& when I finally cooled down,
I saw her.
My level of anger rose again.
& you even touched me. Not as in, molest me.
I mean.. Wth?
Clenched my fist, I really wanted to hit you.

Think positive.
Okay. Had this spot test for FNN today.
& I only studied for about 15 mins or so,
& I thought I'll flunk it.
I got 12/15 for the test. I thought someone will get full marks or 14.
But both Naidu & me got FIRST!
HOORAY! :D :D :D

2 new faces today.
Miss Tian & Mr Sim.
Miss Tian got that voice, which prevents people from sleeping.
& I didnt even sleep nor yawn in her class today!
But for the previous teacher, I can even yawn more than 10 times.
& Mr Sim's teaching is WAY WAY WAYYYYY better than Mr Kerk. (:

I cannot stand the fact that you hate them,
hate the way they're doing things,
& yet you're there,
whining & letting people think that you're so pitiful.
Well I think its pathetic yeah?
I shant waste my time getting so mad just for you.
It just isnt worth it.
I warn you,
if you ever touch me again, I wont be nice yeah? (:

I chose TAEKWONDO for the sports thinggy!
Cant wait! :D :D :D

It came true!!
I am happy on every 27th of the month!
YAY!
Thank you.. You.


Our SECOND prize (:
Cool right? Its from the 40's! So vintage! :D :D

My little brother seems to be very active only at night.
& he laughs at every single thing.
He's SOOO like me :D

Changed alot of teachers.
& CM too! Hooray!!
No more complains or secret leaking issues anything for parents meeting sessions!
HOHOHO!
Chemistry, Miss Tian.
& Im gonna be her rep.

Chinese period was the first today.
& this weird looking female teacher came into the class.
Actually, we were late, we were spraying hair in the toilet :D :D
& the new teacher didnt mind at all!
She wasnt strict, just fierce once,
& her fierce wasnt even half of the fierce I expected.
I wonder will my chinese grades suffer..
CHOY CHOY CHOY!

Btw, thanks Santosh!
THANKS ALOT!! =)

Be Yourself Day today!
Campus super siblings.
HA HA HA!
C2.
We actually have to parade lah.
& we have to stop twice.
Chao embarassed lah.
& jie walked SOOOO fast!!
Im like..
"Uhh.. Can walk slower?"
Just very paiseh lah.
We got first, I didnt really hear the amount of money.
$42? About that.


PUIFUN & ME!
She's really really cute lah.
(: (: (:


I love you guys!
Sam's blocked.. Awww..
I LOVE YOU ALIBABA!!


The bear, for a souvenir.
Cute right?

I dont know lah.
Mixed feelings I guess..
I AM feeling v v v happy today.
But not now.
My bad?
whatever
& Im not happy.


I LOVE THEM.
& theres nothing you can do to ruin it.
My bad again?
Damn you.

&, Im shocked too.
Should I be feeling happy?

Faezah's request :D

Favourite colours : PURPLE & blue!
Favourite foods : Jap food.
Favourite songs : Songs from MCR.
Favourite movies : Uhh.. Loads!
Favourite sports : Swimming!
Favourite season : Winter.
Favourite day of the week: Friday! Practicals! (:
Favourite ice-cream flavour: Raspberry.
Favourite book : Nil.
Favourite anime/cartoon: Spongebob squarepants, Konjiki no Gash Bell!!!

Your 9 currents
current mood: Anxious.
current clothes : Shirt & shorts.
current desktop screensaver: Gash bell :D :D
current toe-nail colour: Purple.
current time: 2015
current annoyance: Homeworks.
current thought: Unfinished maths homework, chemistry, FNN project.
current boy/girlfriend : Nil (:
current book you are reading: Narnia.

Your 8 first
First bestfriend: Huiqi!
First crush: Uhhh.. Cant rmb.
First movie: Face Off
First piercing: Primary 6.
First lie: When I was 7? xD
First music: Pop (:
First car: My dad's black Suzuki. :D :D
First handphone: Samsung E600C. It got stolen :(

Your 7 last
Last cigarette: I dont smoke (:
Last drink: Apple juice
Last car ride: YESTERDAY!
Last crush: =/
Last movie seen: CARS!
Last phone call: Linda
Last CD played: F.I.R's

Your 6 HAVEYOUEVERS:
have you ever dated one of your bestfriends: HOHOHO. Yeah!
have you ever been arrested: Nah. I get off wth everything!
have you ever skinny-dipped: Nah.
have you ever been on tv: Passerby. XD
have you ever kissed someone you dont know: Nop.

Your 5 things worn on you
1. Shirt
2. Short
3. Earrings
4. Hairband
5. Necklace

Your 4 things done today:
1. Homeworks
2. Watched TV
3. FNN project. Not even half done -.-"
4. Sms

Your 3 things you are hearing now:
1. My brother's shuffling of feet
2. A door got slammed
3. Keyboard

Your two things you cannot live with:

1. Handphone!
2. My clique & family! (:

your one thing you would do when you're bored:
Call up someone (:

Tagged people:
Joelle
Clara
Yilian

Havent got time to upload every single one of the photos,
so I collaged it :D :D

West Divsion Day YESTERDAY!
Busy taking down the brownies's timing for the telematch.
First was St Anthony,
second was HongKah,
& third was Zhenghua.
I rmbed the brownies camp organised last year.
I made friends with some brownies from St Anthony,
& their guider, GRACE!! She's got the same name as my sister :D :D
& the brownies from SA still rmbed me! & their guider!
HAHAHA.

We love jap food!/ YL's momo :D/ A scene during the West Div day! & Mrs Loh's talking (:/ GIRL GUIDES! =)


Played bball the day before yesterday.
We were like..
Having sooo much fun!! :D :D :D


Some random photos :D

Sisters :D

Schools reopens tmr,
& the holis are over.
Dont really feel like going back to school somehow.
After thoughts of unfinished homeworks.
For example, chemistry.
I cant even understand some of the questions lah.
Its like.. We havent even learnt before lo.
& when school reopens,
I have to work even harder.
STRESS!! >o:(

Yesterday, went to the arcade with jie, yl & ade.
We got addicted with a machine.
Those kind of machines which have toys in them,
& you have to insert $1 for a try.
& if you're lucky, you get a toy :D

Yilian is super lucky lah.
She hooked a toy!
& passerbys looking gasped when they saw it (:

Player: Yilian
Camerawoman: ME!
People in the background: Grace & Ade
Laughing sounds in the background: ME :D

( Please kindly stop the background music if you wanna hear the sounds in the video. )



Pretty amazing huh?
Im shocked too.

I dont give a damn too,
if you dont mind (:

Im tired. I feel so sore. I feel so pissed.
Yet Im still happy (: (:

I've got over 20 photos to upload, but Im too lazy lah.
Maybe tmr, after the West Divison Day.
I've found out that ever since I got my new handphone, I've been snapping pictures numerous times.
HOHOHO.

Im mad lah. Im so super mad during guides today.
Mrs Loh pulled me into the general office while I was damn busy.
& I can see that she is desperate for aid.
She keep pushing all the blame on me, saying that Im in-charge of the walkathon booth thinggy.
I mean like.. Cmon! Puifun's rank is higher than me.
& for the last time,
IM NOT IN-CHARGE LAH.
I know those important event DO reflect on our testimonals for cca.
Im just confused lah.

Argh. Those 2 ex-cos..
I shall not name, I shall not pinpoint.
Why should they be here when they are not doing anything?
They didnt even help us when we're so busy.
The match should be 10 people doing it,
how come the 4 of us are the only ones doing it?
We skipped breakfast & lunch just to help out.
& you guys?
Just sit there & have your little small chit-chats.
I dont care if guys fall for you.
They're so wrong.

Took the whiteboard from the AVA room today.
I pushed at the back while jie & Ade stood infront.
We were having so much fun when a banging sound was heard.
The whiteboard was broken!!
I couldnt stop laughing, like a hyena.
I laughed till I almost died.
Nrs Neo then came rushing & asked us what happened.

Mrs Neo: OMG! What happened?!
Adeline: Dunno leh
Grace: Yah lor, push then like that.
ME: HAHAHAHA!!!
Mrs Neo: Joyce ah, is it you push until it breaks?
Adeline: YAH YAH!! all Joyce's fault.
ME: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Mrs Neo: Aiyo.. How ah?
Mrs Neo: What you all exactly did?
Adeline: Not our fault!!
ME: *stops laughing* No lah, I push then like that lo.
ME: NOTHING to do with Adeline & Grace.
Mrs Neo: Okok. Never mind never mind

I have to help jie & Ade, I wouldnt want them to get into trouble.
I just cant forget what happened.
OH GOD.

I need sleep!!
I dont wanna wake up at 7am.
Oh whatever.
Have to sacrfice somehow.
Tmr's the West Divison Day!!
WOOHOOO! :D :D :D

Im drained out.
GOODNIGHT WORLD :)

HAHAHA!
NEW SKIN!
AFI AFI AFI!!
PLEASE COMMENT. THANKS (:

Went to the Health zone today to do a badge. Snapped some photos.
:D :D :D


CL & AS (:

Zubaidah & Me!

SOME RANDOM PHOTOS (:

Went to Ikea to buy the seniors their presents today.
Awww.. Gonna miss them LOADS!
Walked through this "long" route.


While waiting for the bus, the 3 of us havent eaten yet,
& this bus number 75 pulled up.
We were like.. "awww.. FOOD!!"
HAHAHA.


Ate at KFC.
& this couple came & sat next to us.
I was observing them lah. :/
& the guy always ends his sentence with a "MAN".
For example,
"Hey look man." "no, its like.. etc etc MAN."
He just ends everything with a MAN.
While I was directing my phone towards them, the guy suddenly looked at me lah.
Shocked the hell outta me. So I pretended that I was smsing. :D


GLITTERS.
YES GLITTERS. I hate them alot alot ALOT.
Those things, they just stick to you, & its hard to remove them.
Argh.. Glitters.

WOOOO!!
Jie's coming home tmr!
:D :D :D

Okay, so..
I'VE GOT A NEW PHONE!! Finally.. "My" almost 2 year phone, changed le! (: (:
The model I wanted wasnt available. Sad huh?
So I've got Samsung x670 instead.
& bought a bluetooth device. Im lost with the bluetooth device.

Just tried out the bluetooth functions & stuffs.
Im damn super mad lah. Almost blew my top. Super complicated, & theres no instructions for me either.
But I've uploaded some songs into it! & the memory is damn little lah.
Im gonna upgrade it soon!

Now I know, being the only child is hard, without any brothers nor sisters.
You first gave me the wrong idea, & it was not entirely ALL my fault.
Havent it occured to you that I didnt say anything?
& I seriously abhor people who calls me STUPID.
I dont talk to people who calls me STUPID.
I must agree, I do not realy excel in studies,
but if Im really stupid, how would I be in sec 3? Or pass my PSLE?
I know that when the both of us got into the NA stream, it was disgraceful to you.
Havent you thought of our feelings?
I dont care, at least my friends dont think that Im stupid.

What's the hook, the twist
within this verbose mystery?
I would gladly bet my life upon it.
That the ghost you love, your ray of light
Will fizzle out without hope.
When the empty sand just flowing through our empty skin,
Ever searching for what we were promised.
Reaching for the golden ring we never let go,
Who would ever let us put our filthy hands upon it.

BOO.
Had a great time today! Although Im feel pissed during the service learning time.
I find that I've spent alot of useless time doing useless stuffs today.
& MRS NEO,
Im not the one in-charge of the walkathon thinggy, so dont keep calling me!!
& there's no such things as 75 schools in the west zone, in that case, can our school accommodate over 800 people? No right?
Geez.

Went to West Mall for lunch today. Guess who we saw today?
MR JAMES KERK!!
& her girlfriend was present too! Then Puifun suggested an idea, to go greet her girlfriend.
We didnt see her front view initially, then we followed her.
We said hi to her, she looks sososo embarassed lah. & her boyfriend!
HOHOHO.

I mean come on! No one mentioned that we should play with those old folks, didnt they? They didnt even make any noise lah. So damn unfair.
& this Indian lady came chasing us away from the home.
Its like.. Damn her lah. We're real pissed off with her.
I dont even know why we decided on going to the old folks home for our service learning.
So we left 30 mins before 1530.
But we already decided on what date is the class outing is going to be!! (:

Went to Ade's house after service learning. It was a last minute decison, besides, she cant go out too.
HAD LOTSA GREAT, FUN, EXCITING, ENJOYABLE, LAUGHABLE TIME!!
Ade's sooo lame lah.
Cos my sister is going away on a camp for 3 days, & Ade is giving her some items during her time away.
& her put her bra on her stuff toy!!
HAHAHA! Hilarious lah.
I LOVE YOU ASG!
ASG ASG ASG! :D :D

Im still very addicted to Gash Bell!!
SOSOSO CUTE!!
I even dreamt about it.
HOHOHO X)


im mad. you didnt tell me any infos lah.
im just.. pissed.
dont talk to me you.. you.. you.
argh..

Although you may be harsh on me at times, I still do cherish you alot.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DAD!!
Love you loads daddy!! (: (: (:


nee konna koto tsuzukete itemo
shiawase wa mitsukaru no kana?
tarinai mono kazoete mitemo
kiri ga nai no wakatteruyo

shinario-dori nante
umaku iku wake naikara
toki ni wa zenbu nagedashi taku naru
sonna hi ga atte mo iiyone

hito wa mina okubyo dakara
yume o miru no kana?
hito wa mina kodoku dakara
ai o sagasu no kana?
kitto chigau basho de kimi mo
onaji tsuki o miteruyone

ieji o isogu nagareru hitogomi
dokoka de yorimichi nanka shite
nante koto nai basho datte ii kara
mo sukoshi hanashitetaiyo

tanoshi-sugiru toki hodo
hayaku sugite iku mono
yoru ga chikazuku shizuka na koen
kyo no nukumori sagashiteru

nanige nai kotoba datte
taisetsu ni shitai
nanige nai itami datte
zutto mamoritai
itsuka kitto kakegaenai
mono ni kawaru sono hi made

meguri yuku kisetsu no naka
sabishisa ni furete
boku-tachi wa itsuka honto no
itoshisa shiru no daro

hito wa mina okubyo dakara
yume o miru no kana?
hito wa mina kodoku dakara
ai o sagasu no kana?
kitto chigau basho de kimi mo
onaji tsuki o miteruyone


Hope you get run down by a car.
& may I say,
you look at bitchy as ever.

Faezah's request. HOHO!

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
1 - CRAZY
2 - always laughing
3 - ECCENTRIC
4 - cheerful
5 - "funny"
6 - disgusting XD
7 - outta my mind

7 THINGS THAT SCARES ME :
1 - ghosts
2 - insects. eg, beetles
3 - super thin girls
4 - when people unexpectedly boos at me
5 - really really gore things
6 - girls who act cute
7 - NIL

7 RANDOM SONGS AT THE MOMENT :
1 - say goodnight ( the click five )
2 - iris ( goo goo dolls )
3 - transatlanticism ( death cab for cutie )
4 - soul meets body ( death cab for cutie )
5 - suddenly ( leann rimes )
6 - all that i've got ( the used )
7 - the ghost of you ( my chemical romance )

7 THINGS I LIKE MOST :
1 - konjiki no gash bell
2 - MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
3 - ipod
4 - CLICK FIVE
5 - ALIBABA!!
6 - ASG!!
7 - F.I.R

7 PEOPLE I WANT TO DO THIS :
1 - clara
2 - dione
3 - huiyi
4 - roufang
5 - shakila
6 - eugene
7 - insyirah

First picture, quan yuan's bloody gums.
You see, he got his teeth plucked out, & it still hurts him .
HAHAHA!
Second picture, him! XD

UGGH.. nothing much to bold nor post today.
Sian 3/4.
& I still wanna skip my medication!


so unbelievable.
so amazing.
the amazing you :D

Such coincidence.

There's this guy in Css, about a year ago, when I was secondary 2, I remembered that after my express maths class, after taking photos for the year book, we had P.E.
& we (the girls) were like pulling each other's shirts up. Childish huh?
& I was running, & there's this guy who knocked into me, & I fell.
He apologised & ran away.
I was hoping that I wouldnt bled, but yes, it bled.
I still can remember this incident for about a year, & I still remember the guy's looks.

& today, went to this food centre.
I was looking around when something caught my eye.
HOHO.
The guy who made me fell was there.
I told my mum & dad.
HAHAHA.
Coincidence huh? :D

Recently, I've been hooked onto animes.
Konjiki no Gash Bell!!
AHHHH!
LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!
& Zatch Bell is soooo adorable!!
OMGOMGOMG!
Currently at episode 7, still a long way to go to finish it.
Planned to watch at least 3 episodes a day.
HOHOHO.

This holidays is like..
*poof*
& a blink of eye, it ended.
& Im only on the surface of my homeworks.
I dont even know what to do for my fnn project.
DIEDIEDIE.
Faizal's gonna skin me alive.
& the next few days & the next week are going to be a hectic week for me.
BUSY BUSY BUSY.

& I STILL WANT THE CLASS OUTING!!
Steamboat & movie! :D :D

Its recovering!
Its recovering!
Its recovering!
-cheers-


i dont need you.
you're not the kind of friend whom i should give better treatments.
you're not the kind of person whom i'll like to remember.
& i regret knowing you lah..
seriously.

I dont know la.
I seemed to be losing track of time and therefore,
I often forgot to eat my medicine.
Im under medication!
& that vitamin C plus pills are really really ENORMOUS!
About 1.5 cm to 2 cm. & I have difficulties swallowing it down.
& the potassium thinggy is so damn STINK!

Quan Yuan drew something for me in msn yesterday.
Im sure you're waiting for me to post it huh? Hahaha, jkjk :D
Im gonna draw one for you next time!! Although I know that Im gonna embarass myself la.
HOHOHO.
THANKS ALOT :D

He drew mine in purple,
his in green.
He's a green freak la. xD
& Im a purple freak! =D
I kept laughing when I saw it.

MEME!! :D :D :D

HIM HIM!! :D :D :D

I've been used by someone whom I shall not name.
He sucks lah. Damn him.
FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT, LIAR LIAR LIAR.
It fits him perfectly!

Every 27th of each month, a special thing befall.
Will history repeats itself?
I hope he recalls.. Cos I still remember everything, like it happened yesterday.
UB & HG :D :D :D


its getting better.
REJOICE!

Came across this blog.
Practically, she's always blabbering about her being FAT.
I shant paste her url here, shouldnt embarass her.
Look at this.

"ii am sho fat larhs... ii meann,, look at muii,, itz sho obvious larhs. whyy am ii bornn fat?? ii wan tuu endd mahh lyfe... no one wans muii,, mahh dearr habb left muii... issit becuz ii am fat?? ii askked hiim... he didntt sayy anitinn. ii triedd vomittingg,, andd cuttingg mahhself... espp whrr all muii fats r... but no use lors... muii throat hurts lors. ii reallyy wan tuu endd muii lyfe lors. ii shall tryy vomitting laters... pplee readdingg this,, ferr mahh frends out deree... am ii really tat fat?? does a 45 kg gurll countedd as fat?? ii am sho miiserable lors... sobb sobb sobb..."

WELL HELLO??
You're only 45 kg lah.
If you call yourself fat, what about other people that are more than that amount of weight?
FAT, there are 2 different kinds of fat.
One, overweight.
Two, obese.

Overweight and obese are two different kinds of things.
Overweight refers to the excess amount of muscles.
Obese refers to the excess amount of fats.

Get this 2 facts right before calling yourself that. & a 45kg girl doesnt call herself fat. That is, unless she's really insane lah. People often regard fats as a useless thing. Actually its not. Sheesh.
& bulimia does make you slimmer. But it dont solve problems. It never does.

I think that girl is really outta her mind. & look at the way she's typing!!
Tsk tsk tsk tsk. Maybe I'll flood her.
HOHOHO.


was it something i said?

Im back again.
:D :D :D
Almost a week is gone, yet I didnt even started doing my homework.
Si bei cham lah.

I had car-sick. I vomit whenever Im in the car for a long period of time.
Mummy gave me this, EMOTION SICKNESS pill.
Had trouble swallowing it down.
HAHAHA.

Im surprised lah.
My little brother is only 6 this year,
yet he swallowed the pill infront of me.
Compare, a 15 year old & a 6 year old.
9 years of difference.
I still rmb, the first time I swallowed pills is when Im 13.
LOL XD

Know whats worse than going overseas?
Going overseas when you're ill.
Cant believe it lah.
I fell ill after eating that harmless looking 50 cents sarsi flavoured bubble gum.
Shouldnt have gave in to my temptation.
Tsktsktsk.
Such small harmless candy, such danger it can produce.
GOD.

I dont wanna leave the house.
I dont wanna go out.
Something's wrong ; beauty
So much harm.

IM BACK IM BACK IM BACK! -cheers-

That camp is kinda fun, with those enthu guides & stuffs.
I LOVE WEST DIVISION!
WEST DIVISION!! hohoho.

DAY 1
So god damn tired lah.
Build our own gadgets & tent.
& the best thing is, we never even build that canvas sort of tent before.
Kind of feeling lost for a second there.
Some school came over & told us what to do. Forgot what school was that.
So hot & tired.
Shant elaborate.

Day 2
It sucks lah.
This stupid "raiding the city" thinggy, oh god.
The first clue.
Should be BTH, we went to FCP.
Climbed the never ending steps at FCP, found out that is wasnt there.
How annoying.
Those stupid in-charge are so UNREASONABLE!
Its only 2 people for god's sake.
& STOP DAO-ING CSS GUIDES.
Minus off 5 points?
Didnt went that well.
My heart just felt pain & I couldnt breathe for a second. *ouch*
Went bad.
Really bad.

DAY 3
Imagine,
having lunch under a 100 degrees HOT HOT HOT sun,
& you're there sweating like siao.
& your forks & spoons are mostly made of metal right?
& the worst thing is, it will be even bad if your plates are made of metal.
*Nudges Pf*
Both Durga & me chose canoeing as our activity for today.
& MY NAME WAS THE FIRST ON THE LIST! :D
Grouped together with ZSS & BVS.
Was kinda fun.
I LOVE CANOEING!
Didnt get first lah. But, we did have fun.
Okay,
while I was in the water, those rocky rocks tripped.
My skin rubbed against those sharp stones & rocks.
My palm scratched against a small rock. When I look at my palm, the rock is still stuck deep into my skin.
OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH!!
& scars are left at my left leg.
HOHOHO!

Didnt sleep at night with the guys until late at night.
This thing, we adress it as, the " E news ".
Its those secrets & gossips that we share.
So interesting to find out what are the views of the guys on other people.

Shant rant on it any further. Im sososo drained out :(

To those fans of Taufik & Paul of Sg idol, hope that you wont feel insulted yeah?
Alrighty!
I think that Taufik is like..
Acting like Usher.
Esp when he sings. Notice something?
He's like, pulling it longer & longer & longer.
He wants to be the next Usher huh?
For Paul, dont you find that the way he dresses looks exactly like My Chemical Romance?
Esp Gerard Way. Dont find it insulting.
Cos Im a big fan of MCR & I love Gerard Way like siao personally.
Why does Sg idols nowadays likes to follow huge stars' footsteps?
So UNORIGINAL.

IMPORTANT NOTE. (AGAIN)
IM GOING OVERSEAS TMR!
Wont be back till most probably Saturday or Sunday.

GOODBYE WORLD,
GOODBYE SINGAPORE :D :D :D

TMR TMR TMR TMR!!
TMR'S THE DAY!

Going to the camp challenge tmr.
Outdoor camping
We have to build our own shoe rack, our own baggage rack, our clothes line & flagpole, etc etc..
Its like.. A last minute stuff.
We learnt everything in the eleventh hour. LOL
I just hope we're able to do our gadgets within the 2 or 3 hrs range.
I dont wanna cock up tmr.
Mrs Loh said,
"I dont mind if you all didnt get the first prize, just have fun!"
And after a few weeks after she said the sentence, she said,
"If you all didnt get the first prize, better get 1st runner up!! Or the worst, 2nd runner up."
Woah, she changes her thinking real fast. Tsktsktsk.

Did our clothes line today with Pf & Durga.
It didnt work out the way we wanted yesterday.
Almost wanted to finished everything, until the stupid rain came.
Had to move our gadget to the canteen.
So troublesome, didnt practice pitching tent today,
dont know if we know what to do tmr.
Pretty nervous.

&&!
Its not our problem, it is the another level's job,
they're not doing it.
They're not even helping at all, besides holding on to the poles & stuffs.
Told them to do square lashing or diagonal lashing,
they give you a blur look.
Your seniors are just being nice to you okay?
So appreciate it.

I dont care if you're OH-SO-POPULAR,
I dont care if people's behind you all along,
I dont care if you're being nice to me all of a sudden,
I dont care if you're waving to me,
I dont care if you're saying hi to me,
I dont care if you're saying nice things to me,
I dont care if you're waiting for me to go to our next class.
I JUST DONT CARE ALRIGHT?
You made my mood go haywired today.
How evil.

You're just being selfish,
you're just being a BIG jerk.
Just the plain old selfish you.
Incorrigible.

Just bolding the IMPORTANT words out.
Im not mad or anything lah,
I just want justice!
I want fairness,
not popularity.
Some people, or those people who's behind you wouldnt have agreed to whatever I say.
Useless lah.

Joyce, you're making a complete fool outta yourself.
Joyce, you're rejoicing over absolute nothing.
Joyce, you plain old weird, fat, stupid happy girl.
How I love you to bits! :D

SOSOSOSOSOSO SAD!!
On Tuesday, on channel 19, AXN,
they'll be showing 2 hours of CSI.
OMGOMGOMG!
I JUST SIMPLY LOVE CSI!
CSI, CSI NY or CSI Miami.
Like Love it LOVE IT LOVE IT! :D
Just so sad, I gonna miss it.
After the hectic camp, immediately the next day,
Im gonna be going overseas! GOD.
And theres loads of homework calling my name.
I havent even started on my FNN project nor any of the homework.
Im sosososo DEAD.

IMPORTANT NOTE,
GOING ON A CAMP TMR,
WONT BE BACK TILL MONDAY,
FLOOD ME PEOPLE :D

Im so super tired.
Im not suffering of lack of sleep nor insomnia.
Going to school for remedials,
and after the remedials,
I have cca. And my cca is not slack at all.
We have to prepare for the camp challenge, which is 2 days away, on Friday.
Im gonna miss my online friends, going online, my friends & my blog.
awww =/

Guess what?
I snipped my sister's hair yesterday. To be more specific,
I've snipped her fringe.
Let me tell you,
her fringe is super long,
if I dont cut it, I'll cut it off when she's alsleep.
Was kinda shocked when she allowed me to cut it.
In the past,
she dont allow me to cut it, said I was inexperienced & clumsy.
Tsktsktsk.
Now, she looks exactly like me!
Well, twins are meant to look alike XD

I dont know why lah.
Im feeling all mad inside in the morning.
I seriously cannot take it anymore. If it continues, I swear I'll chop your head off (:
Or the worst,
I'll transfer school, change my name & move to a new town.
*laughs*

I saw Sangeetha putting up notices of the "Campus Super Siblings".
Something like that.
C1 to C5.

MY PHOTO SUCKS IN THE NOTICES!!
OMGOMGOMG!!
I look damn sua ku lah.
Its like some siao gin na smiling away. *hides*
But luckily,
those notices placed around the school are not so obvious.

Yesterday, bought this really expensive sweet.
Its the most expensive sweet I've ever bought.
In the past, the most expensive sweet is about $2.50
MY MONEY! Goodness.

Pf, Seri, Ain & I went to eat today.
Was at the bbt shop when we saw 3 girls infront of us. Most probably sec 1s.
The first girl, her bag is super cool lah.
Its like a shirt. & the sides is opened.
So I put my fingers in there. The guys kept laughing.
Then Ain stood behind one of the girls.
I tapped them, the girl turned & stared blury at her. *laughs*
Ain even pulled one of the girls keychains.
Tsktsktsk.

Some people whom I'll like to describe.

Person 1: I hate you & Im not gonna change my mind towards you.
Person 2: Thanks for passing the note to me. I feel much more better after getting it off my chest ^^
Person 3: I dont want you to change. But hey! Its your own decision right? I should be behind you all along. But I still like the old you (:
Person 4: You're one of the most hilarious person I've ever known. Thanks for making that first call & brightening up my day ^^
Person 5: You saw me yet you didnt say anything. On the verge of forgetting :D
Person 6: You do not look nice in black. I still hate you alot.
Person 7: DONT EVER INSULT MY DAD. Although he may be hot tempered at times, he is still my beloved dad. I love my dad w or w/o people's comments. You said my clique & I are rude, we shall not talk yeah? Now, wont that solve everything?

Going back to school tmr afternoon.
My fingers hurt after doing those gadgets,
but its kinda fun (:
Im dead beat, so drained out.

You last breathed on 14 may.
Where have you been exactly?


hi.
arent i seeing you everyday?

I cant believe it, its only a gap of 5.6.
& yet, so much difference in the position.
Sometimes, such things can be so sickening.

Went to the BP quest briefing today.
Took a taxi.
The journey to Bishan for me is damn long,
couldnt stand it, but i have to control.
Almost reaching there, I puked.
But I swallowed it back again, I chewed on my vomit, & swallowed it back.
HAHAHA :D

Intially, didnt wanna go. Damn lazy.
Changed my mind in the end.

Had to cancel our BP quest cos we didnt have time.
The finals was at 3rd june, but we're having that camp challenge.
No PNA points, no badges.
SO SAD!
No more gold award. Tsktsktsk.
Went to Junction 8 with Mrs Loh and Anyu after the briefing.

Doesnt it feel weird whenever you're eating or shopping with your teacher?
But she's damn nice lah. She pays for our transport and our lunch.
SO NICE!
Both of us were kinda shocked.
I never did see her acting so nice before, except for the time when she treats us for that pizza treat & the Narnia movie.
THANKS MRS LOH! (:

" Another day goes by
Will never know just wonder why
You made me feel good, made me smile
I see it now and I
Can say its gone that would be a lie
Cannot control this
This thing called love "

Created another skin.
The theme is on THE CLICK FIVE. Shall use it soon (:

THE CLICK FIVE
Just cant get enough of them.


Daddy's thinking & attitude changed 360 degrees. I dont know if she has brainwashed him or somthing. But it cant be, I've watched everything with my own eyes.
I dont know why I kept weeping either.

Im just emotional alright? & stop cursing me cos Im crying.
It doesnt make sense.


Suddenly, I feel so stupid.
REAL stupid.


Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

Regrets?
Not at all.
Im contented.
NOT!

agiyks u fi ri rgw fyuswa giyaw qurg abty rne?
un kujw, fis sanb kazt kag.
Oh wait!
It aint a secret no more.
It isnt a secret at all.

Would you rather a $60 game or 3 things that would last you for the rest of your life?
Well maybe not the rest of your life, but at least a year or so.
Which would you prefer?


u qabr tiy ri kicw nw, u bwws kice. un bir a swaoi jua ie qgarwcwe,
u kicw kiasa id ook.
guij ban,
qyabtyab,
ucab,
rii vas ucab us jubsa guariet?
*kayfga*
u bwws kice (: (:

Just curious,
Im wondering if anyone knows what Im talking about :D

I shall blog about yesterday and today, since there's so many going-ons :D


YESTERDAY

Mdm Aishah said she'll show and present the school the 5 groups of look-alike siblings.
Kind of shocked when both my sister and I heard that we're gonna be standing infront of the school.
So,
we're in C2.
Dint know Sharon Mak was there too.
She kept telling me that she was super scared.
Mdm Aishah said,
"C2, GRACE LEE AND JOYCE LEE!"
Hahahaha!
Imagine the fear that we're having. GOD!
The first was a pair of Indian siblings.
When walking to the front,
I saw some teachers kept pointing.
HOHOHO.

Mrs Yeo said she wanted to speak to me alone.
Im like. "uh oh, Im in trouble."
Just some private stuffs (:

Went to the old folks home after school.
That place was abit isolated.
Started to rain not long after we arrived.
A lady briefed us.
& this guy came. He was the, so called "asst".
I noticed something,
his pants were super BIG.
Like those 60's or 70's kinda pants,
like Elvis! :D :D

Went to talk to the old folks.
I dont know why,
people regard me as the older sister,
and regarded my sister as the younger one. *laughs*
Quite fun though. (:
Cant wait for the next session!


For today.

Woke up at 0430. Couldnt even open my eyes,
like a new-born hamster.
Had to give Sam a wake up call.
Went to Mac Ritchite after that.

I hate having car-sick.
Gives you that nauseous feeling. YUCKS.

Had to do duty.
that recording place was so hot.
Everyone was fanning themselves.
Then that stupid Adeline drew my name on my arm, & now, I cant erase it nor wash it away.
Was damn busy throughout the whole day.
After that,
breathe a sigh of relief, the whole thing finished.
-phew-

someone said i was secretly smiling.
NO WAY!

Went to hail a cab with Huiyi & Puifun.
Adeline, Yilian and Anyu took another one.
Guess what?
Our fare was 4 dollars,
and theirs were 5 dollars.
MONEY SUCKERS! XD
Went to Lot 1 after that.

Anyu and I had to change for the West Division Quiz.
The toilet was empty,
and I came out first.
Was re-tying my hair when I heard some voice gasped desperately, "Joyce.."
Dont know why,
I jumped outta my skin, & ran outta the toilet.
Went back in afterwards. Luckily I didnt scream.
Anyu came out shortly.
Thats when we heard the same voice again,
& it kept repeating my name.
Kinda creepy.
When the rest of the guys came out,
asked them if it was them who make those sounds.
They objected and act dumb.
Thats when I knew immediately that they were lying.
OH MAN, made me so scared :/

Met up with Ailing after that.
Went to Bukit Panjang Govt High.
There were 3 rounds,
9 groups for the starting.
6 groups for the 2nd round,
and 4 groups for the last round.
I didnt even study a single bit of the guiding stuffs. And neither did the rest of the guys.
Went to the physics lab to do the 10 MCQS.
they annouced the 6 groups for the next round.
And guess what?
WE GOT IN!
Kind of unexpected when someone who did not study, actually can get into the next round.
But sadly,
we lose in the 2nd round.
How embarassing :/

Anyu lost her whole collection of cards.
Sad for her.
If you have any doubts,
just call me up yeah?
Im sure your mum will understand :D :D

My maid is going back to Indo. tomorrow.
And I have to wake up at 5 to send her off to the airport.
Its like.. So tiring. Im bound to faint anytime now (:
But if I dont, I gonna let her down..
Oh well, sometimes, you're just gonna have to make sacrifices.

Tomorrow's the MEET-THE-PARENTS session. And mine's at 12.
Im prepared for the most.
Actually,
Im not prepared at all.

HAHA.
Cant believe Im actually using my blog to advertise for myself :/
Thats the only recent picture which both my sister & I have taken.
So.. Yeah.

VOTE FOR C2 FOR THE LOOK-ALIKE SIBLINGS COMPETITION!

i dont know..
why do i keep saying, "i dont know?"
dumbass XD

HAHA,
I created this skin myself.
I think its pretty cool. nah, should not qua myself.
Hoho.
But I'm just finding a host for English songs.

DONT RIP ANYTHING OFF HERE. (:

OH GOD.
MDM AISHAH JUST CALLED ME.
She told both my sister and I to meet her at 0710 tmr morning.
She kept laughing lah.
Dont know why either.
Its about the youth day thinggy.
OMG.
I wonder how she got my house number :/

Seri's a really really nice person.
Chatted with her for a really really long time.
She's really really cute at times,
she can really cheer me up.
Someone whom I can share my secrets with (: (:











I Still - BackStreet Boys

Who are you now
Are you still the same
Oe did you change somehow
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you

And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that

No matter how I fight it, can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, not refuse to see
That I keep coming back
yeah, I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last

I've tried to fight it, can't deny it
You don't even know that

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

No, No...
I wish I could find you
Just like you found me, that I
Would never let you go

(need you, care about you)
Though everything's been said and done, yeah
I still feel you (I still feel you)
like I'm right beside you (Like I'm right here beside you)

But still no word from you.


This song sounds pretty sad,
at the same time,
its pretty nice too :D


i get it now :D

I wanted to apologise,
but something held me back.

*holding back my tears

i know that you're vuaaws against us sisters.
i know you love them.
i know you did not thank me personally.
i did not make any noise.
i know you only thank pretty girls.
i know that you know that i like you.
i know that you did not intend to do anything.
i feel so..
kept in the dark.
i know that you think that im the cause of all the troubles.
so,
i shall say,
im sorry, i did not know what i've done either.
i shall be gone from your life.
i shall make you forget me.
i shall disappear, i shall be gone with the wind.
& you shant be seeing me anymore.
& dont ask me about almost everything.
that is, unless you really want to help me.

i wont be blogging frequently here.


My blog is the cause of all the fricking problems.
Damn it.

I'm speechless.
Real speechless.
absolute nothing to say..
kinda upset.


Got this siblings look-alike competition.
Both me and my sister signed up for it.
I doubt we will win but,
look on the bright side (:

Told mum & dad about my CH & chemistry results.
They seems kind of happy when they heard it.
They told us that they expected a 60+ marks.
I wanted to cry,
I dont think I can survive..

I love you Sam, Puifun, Jie & Jessie
It isnt your fault that you couldnt make me smile.
Joelle,
I bet you that they're just acting for the sake of it.
You're much more luckier than me.
You still have a chance, unlike me.
Dont give up,
strong girls dont cry (:


u xabr vwkuwcw rgar gw axryakkt qwbr ri rakj ri nt huw,
ubarwas id ne.
ura kujw ainw ubaabw dar fuek, kicubf ainwaib qgi qukk bir ewryeb nt kicw.
u sus dwkr gaoot rgar gw aabf qgar u riks gun ri.
vyr,
sus gw ewakkt gwws qgar u aat?
ubarwas id vxia tyw subf ewnubsa gun id agaeib?
hiwkkw riks nw rgar tyi,
ucab, jbiqa rgar u axryakkt kujw tiy.
giq diikuag qaa u ri fucw tiy ayxg a vuf gubr?

u hyar qabba rwkk tiy rgar,
u ewakkt ewakkt kujw tiy akir <3

I dont know.
I really dont know.
Why?


Theres this particular 2 maids that I'll like to emphasize on,
which I've seen today.

Maid no. 1 ;
I was having dinner with my sister.
Then this guy with a cigarette between his fingers came along.
Walked past me,
this foul smell almost made me puke.
And that sickening thing almost touched me.
Luckily i siam away just in time.
Gave that guy an annoyed look.
Then this maid was sitting not so far away from me.
That smoker came and have a small chat with that maid.
This maid became so overjoyed and she was laughing loudly,
non-stop.
Her employer's daughter tugged at her auntie.
Instead of replying her,
she just shoved & brushed her off,
telling her to go play somewhere else.
Kinda annyoing at that time.
And that guy who came and talked to the maid isnt a Bangladesh.

Maid no. 2 ;
Was in the lift.
I was barely inside the lift when she depress the close button quickly.
She gave me this bo chap look and press the open door button.
Again, I was halfway when she close the lift again.
The door slammed against me,
luckily, the sensor sensed me.
Stared at the maid.
She dao-ed me,
I rolled my eyes at her.
I'm like,
it isnt my fault okay?
If it was you,
how would you feel?
And its not funny.


Something ugly this way comes
Through my fingers sliding inside
All these blessings all these burns
I'm godless underneath your cover
Search for pleasure search for pain
In this world now I am undying
I unfurl my flag my nation helpless.


[EDIT]
WTH.
SHIT.
YOU'RE SO FRICKING BIASED.
ESP TO ME.
ITS KINDA DISGUSTING.
NOW IM REAL MAD,
ALL THANKS TO YOU.
DAMN YOU.
[/EDIT]

A dirty chat between jez & me.
HAHAHA (:
we're both sickos


sweeeet says:
breasts are meant to be touched

־ hyena says:
HAHA

־ hyena says:
MINE!

sweeeet says:
aiya,

־ hyena says:
MY LINE

sweeeet says:
i touched urs

sweeeet says:
hahahahahah

sweeeet says:
UR BREAST

־ hyena says:
never!

sweeeet says:
hahahahahahahaha

sweeeet says:
eh, no ur sissy

־ hyena says:
YOU NEVER TOUCH MY BREASTS


[EDIT]
jez's masterpiece! ^^




[/EDIT]

It's so stupid,
I'm actually worrying about absolute nothing.
*gives stupid look*

Raj unexpectedly gave me back my resource file.
I thought that he would forget all about it,
if he had forgotten,
I'd have killed him long ago (:

黑黑的天空低垂
亮亮的繁星相随
虫儿飞虫儿飞
你在思念谁

天上的星星流泪
地上的玫瑰枯萎
冷风吹冷风吹
只要有你陪

虫儿飞花儿睡
一双又一对才美
不怕天黑只怕心碎
不管累不累
也不管东南西北

I'VE PASSED MY ENGLISH!
I'VE PASSED MY ENGLISH!
I'VE PASSED MY ENGLISH!
*SCREAMS*
*SCREAMS WITH SAMANTHA*
Have to admit,
the tension was super high.
Everyone was wishing that Mrs Yeo would call out their index numbers after school today.
Someone told me the first thing she mentioned was,
"The twins did passed."
Didnt hear that.
"Index number 5, 6, etc etc."
INDEX NUMBER 5 PASSED!!
*grins widely*
I CAN GET INTO SEC 4!! :D :D

Yingzhen told me something,
she found that it was super disgusting.
Shant elaborate any further,
for the sake of some people.
I find it SUPER disgusting.
I find it the most disgusting news I've ever heard in days.
*pukes*
Such a...

It was raining today.
Nobody was at the field.
Shouted with all my might,
shout my heart out.
It feels kinda good,
with the rain tickering down your face,
with the breeze blowing you.
For a second,
I did not remember that I had been so sad before.
It feels kinda weird,
but,
my negative feelings have subsided (:

dear jessie ;
strong girls do not cry (:

So,
he found out.
I shouldnt have been too obvious.
I'm not good at expressing myself either.

Now,
I'm getting more & more paranoid.
I dont think I'll be myself tomorrow.

wish me luck!
luck!

if ANANDA RAJ doesnt return me my resource file tomorrow,
I swear I'm gonna skin him alive.
He has already procrastinate it for a week.
& he claims that he didnt steal it,
if bringing something that is not yours back home,
doesnt it count as stealing?
I seriously hopes he'll bring it tomorrow,
I'll kill him if he doesnt.

Now I know,
every happy moments come with a day of sorrowness.
And every good deeds you've done,
no one will ever appreciate it.

I must say.
I'm quite upset.
Not upset, something much more worser than upset.
I can't believe myself either. The first thing he talks about,
is her.

Have it ever crossed your mind that whenever you speak of her,
I feel so terrible inside,
I feel so..
Shattered.

I grieve over everything.
I blamed myself for all the misery caused.
I always thought that you're a pretty nice guy.
Indeed you are,
one of the nicest guy I've ever know.
I treated you as my savior,
someone who rescues me from doing crazy things,
someone who wakes me up from stupidity,
someone who actually took the time to hear me out.

Okay,
I have to admit it myself,
I do feel sad whenever i saw her name being typed out.
Ever wonder why i took so long to reply when I saw her name?
Now you know.
I seriously hope that you won't take it to heart.
Friends?

We went to west Mall again.
We've been going to WM for 3 days straight.
Eating the same stuffs,
eating the same old desserts,
well maybe not for Jez, pf or Sam.
Going to the toilet after eating,
walking at the same old place.
Crazy huh?

Though,
I'm kinda suprised that you're very observant.
No one really did know what happened either.

Everytime I wanna post photos,
I'm always getting so mad.
But yeah.
PM me in msn to get the photos!
I'm so pissed :/


Where are you when I'm having all this fears?

She told me to try opening another blog,
spill out all sadness in you,
spill out all your troubles.
I don't know if it will work, but hey!
Its worth a try right?
And i swear that no one would gain access to it.
That is, unless someone hypnotise me to giving them the web.
Impossible. (:

Here are some of the results i've gotten today.

E maths ; 58.3/100
A maths ; 41.2/100
Physics ; 49/100
Chemistry ; 60/100
Chinese ; 67/100
FNN ; 63/100
Combined humanities ; 80/100

You must be thinking,
how stupid can this girl get?
she deserves to be in the NA stream.

Comments, i dont wanna hear any.
That is, unless it is a good one (:

I've gone completely INSANE.
I've gone gaga over my Combined humanities.
I'm super duper uber HAPPY over my SS & History.
I seriously want to thank Miss Ker for marking my paper.

But,
too bad, i'm not the first in class either.
Someone scored 85.
And Mrs Png has came back and is currently teaching us Combined humanities again!
But i sure do miss Miss Nurul.
She's super good in her teaching,
initially, i didnt understand a single thing.
But now, i do.

Went to West Mall with the guys today,
without sam.
I had the greatest laugh today.
It has been so long since i last heard my laughter.
Laughed real loud at the foodcourt.
People stared as if theres an IMH patient currently on the run.
I couldnt be more happier.

Its like,
being happy,
hasnt been so much fun.


Just something random,

HAPPY 300TH POST! :D

Easy come,
easy go.


I dont know how it happened either,
dont ask me.
It hurts alot,
everyday, every single moment.
It hurts me alot more than you can imagine.

I dont know why he's siding her.
I dont know that kind of "side",
nobody really do understand what kind of pain she has given me.
All she wants is just...

Opening the bottle cap. Filled it up with water.
Speak, speak out all your problems, speak out all your troubles.
Whisper them softly.
Cap it on tight, vent your anger, shake the bottle with all your might.
Throw them all out,
let them flow,
let them be free to this world.
May them,
be gone with the wind.

If you love somebody, let them go.
If they return, they were always yours.
If they don't, they never were.

You do care,
i can see that you're trying.
But do you know that the moment i saw that particular thing,
i felt myself,
being stabbed a million times.
But, just one thing..

Arent you afraid that i'm gonna fall for you?


Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye,
but for now.
All i see,
it was..
it was you.

today's my worst day ever.


imagine,
sleeping in a room filled with sick people,
i'm already down with a fever,
with flu and a sore throat pilling up.
how can i not be sick?

miss lim pulled me to the chemistry lab today during assembly.
i guess she found out.
i shouldnt have even touched the her stuffs.
i shouldnt have even stayed behind,
i shouldnt have even accompained her.

so, she pulled me.
without talking,
i started sobbing madly.
i started weeping as if someone close to me passed away.
i started crying,
like there's no tomorrow.

she told me,
you shouldnt cut yourself, you shouldnt hurt yourself.
i shant say anymore.
she told me to shout it loud into the sky,
shout it to an empty space.

i wanna shout it out loud,
I WANNA SCREAM IT LOUD,
I WANNA SHOUT IT LOUD,
I SHOULDNT BE MISERABLE OVER OTHERS.

i shouldnt have even come online,
i shouldnt have even bothered talking,
i shouldnt have even been tagging at hers,
i shouldnt have even been giving up to my weakness,
i shouldnt have even been talking to you,
i shouldnt have even been born into this world.

you people make me sob endlessly.
i cry every moment,
everytime,
its like a daily breakfast.
i cant stop it.


i'm so sick.
i'm as sick as a pig.
i'm as sick as the germ.
sick sick sick.



thanks shiping,
thanks for calling me up.
thanks for knowing my problems,
thanks.

be a prodigy,
be someone noble.


oh right, get your fucking ass outta here yeah? i dont need comments from others,
i dont heed comments given by some bitch.
why bother tagging me?
oh, you just have no fucking life eh?
oh, then,
i shall not blame you (:

i really dont mind if he starts shouting again,
but if he start to scream & shout at the woman,
i shall not be nice.

i suddenly remembered this "funny" conversation between guohao & i.
at that time,
he was blocking my way.

ME: excuse me.
guohao: *refuse to move*
ME: wei, move lah
guohao: shit you lah cb, wad?!
ME: knnbccb, fuck you asshole. *shoves him aside*

grahhh, i must admit, i was super mad at that moment.
hoho.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
LOVE YA LOADS MUM!! =)
& she really likes that necklace.
:D

sorry sam,
cant post the photos.
havent find every single thing i want.
next time yeah?
sorry!


joyce,
you've earned yourself another scar.
good luck (:

baby,
cry for those who suffer.
baby,
cry for those who's in pain.
baby;
i love you.


its like a gore story kinda tale.
theres happy endings,
theres sad endings,
& theres endings which are never ending.
which one fits mine?
i'll choose neither.

happy stuffs do befall on me,
sadistic ideas are beginning to repeat history again.
angst feelings engulfed my mind once again.

just typical people,
i hate it when i ask something,
you dont fucking hell replying.
well hello?
didnt education taught you anything?
maybe it's because you're so GOD DAMN FUCKING ARROGANT,
thats one way to put it.
you cant just force us to do things that we dont like,
nor do things which will embarass us.

you made me __ __ again.
i'm like,
you seriously know that i will __ __,
why make me mad?
oh right,
you never did found out about that huh?
now,
i've got to cover up for all that i've done.
are you happy now?

if anyone finds out,
nobody will ever speak to me,
they'll think that i'm an insane kid,
doing whatever things she likes.
how about,
i shall not let any single soul know about this,
nobody will ever find out,
people will not avoid me, something like that.
now,
case close now huh?
no, not so fast.
lets wait until it recover shall we?
we shall address it as,
our dirty lil secret shall we?

he seems quite a distance from me,
its not that we're not speaking,
its that,
nobody dares to speak up.
unlike some other busybodies.
i hate it whenever people spreads my secret around.
its so fucking annoying.

& please,
i'm trying very very hard to change,
i shall change,
watch me.

i hate pretty girls,
i hate cute girls,
they make me so sick.
fuck them.
KNNBCCB.
i wont hate my friends who're pretty.
that is,
if anyone admits that they're either chio or cute.
PUI!

when i ask you a question,
answer it,
dont play games with me.


its so fucked up, i hate every single thing. you shouldnt have made me rejoice about it in the first place, you shouldnt have even reprimanded us.
& you, you shouldnt have scolded me for crying. i cried is because i'm feeling mad and miserable. dare i say, i tried using a method, instead, i wanted even more to cry out. cutting myself once again did cross my mind. but instead, i didnt want to do it again is because you him. yes, him.
about him, the issue is this.. he msged me, instead, he chose not to reply. how rude.
i'm so miserable, i wish someone could really really understand my problems.. i want someone who could sacrifice their precious time, to hear me out.

i think, i've beginning to like you even more.
i dont used to know you, but i do now.
but, i do like you alot now, just the fact that you already like another girl..

dont bother ctrl+A the whole page,
dont bother highlighting the paragraph..
it will do neither you nor me any good.
that is,
unless anyone could understand me.

my mum's present (:

sam covered her face! awww :/

TADA! we love you miss nurul!

<3

i'm a happy girl :D
happy happy happy.


went to bugis with the same old usual guys again.
we made a promise,
to go back there and do our shopping.
& we did!

at jurong mrt station,
i was with puifun.
we need to tap our cards in order to enter right?
i think i was too caught up in something,
i tapped the card, wanted to walk past that thing.
it didnt open,
*ouch*
& i was pacing my speed somemore.
found out,
it was another way round,
cant go enter from there.
HA HA HA!

reached bugis.
jessie was having a flu!!
*laughs*
walk around like what others do. =)

went to buy my mum's mother's day gift.
i forgot the shop name,
this salesgirl came asking,
asked me what i was looking for.
i wanted to speak, but she asked me,
"are you buying a present for your mother on mother's day?"
( in chinese )
"uh huh."
sam & jez chose a chain to replace another chain.
need to pay extra $2.
& the box, which the necklace will be put in,
$3!
actually, wanted to change everything,
then the salesgirl signalled to be, telling me to go over.
she said she'll make a deal, since its for my mum.
she will not charge extra $2 for the chain,
& will lower the price of the box.
HA HA HA HA!
such a good deal.
thanks, to that shop (:

i shall post the photos tmr.
I'M ALRDY SO FUCKING PISSED WITH PHOTOBUCKET AND BLOGSPOT,
MAKE ME SO FUCKING MAD.
ARGHH..

my maid says that i'm crazy,
cause' i'm always seen smiling at the computer screen.
HAHAHA!

i thought i lost my hope,
i thought i'm losing it,
i thought he has forgotten me.
but no,
these are just thoughts,
thoughts can be changed,
thoughts cant be serious,
unless you change the fact of thoughts.

why why why?!

call me happy,
cause it really fits me (:


saw mdm soh at the parade square,
the moment she saw me,
she like,
smiled at me?
asked her what is her surname, in chinese.
cause' everytime in class,
we call her,
"lao shi" or "mdm soh".
we never did greet her by her chinese surname.

she's called, "Su lao shi"
Soh Lin Lim. ( in english )
Su Lin Lim. ( in chinese )
*laughs uncontrollably*
she mentioned that among the twins ( my sis and i ),
has the same name as her,
about the same.

okay, it was me.
for anyone who doesnt know my chinese name,
its called,
"Ling Ling"
embarassing ain it?
i find it so embarassing :/

i was the third one to take the chinese oral.
everything went quite well,
except for some stinking words that i cant read.
i got a rocky start,
i kept blabbering, every word i said was wrong.
i said,
"sorry sorry, again again."
i said it in english. i wonder if she understands.
i stumbled a couple of times,
but got used to it.
i havent even finished reading,
she just stopped me abruptly,
how rude.

started having a conversation with her.
told her about my family,
her eyes went WIDE open.
asked me how many siblings i got.
i said 2, 1 brother, and 1 sister.
all the while she thought that i had another sister.
she said sisters are cute.
told her about my sister.
she asked me which sister,
i pointed back, cause' my sister was behind me, reading.
she got shocked again.
and said,
"ni men liang jie mei hen ke ai"
( the both of you sisters are very cute )
i dont agree,
i think twins are hard to get,
ahhhh.. crap.

went to bugis with puifun, samantha & jessie.
i regret not bringing enough cash with me.
it was a last min arrangement.
miss nurul's last day with us today.
i'm seriously gonna miss her LOADS.
she even knows my name!
i bet mrs png dont knows it anyway.
she really really rocks like hell!
she helps us in our combined humanities,
she's going back to uni to study.
GOOD LUCK MISS NURUL! =)


absolute nothing to say,
its been 1 week since we last talked.
i dont know,
maybe i'm just losing it.
dont mind me,
a child losing it is common.


falling,
falling,
deeper,
and deeper,
i love you (:

i'm guessing that you found out huh?
well, thats just TOO bad.


written papers are over!
chinese orals's tmr, english's the day after tmr.
PLAY TIME'S HERE!!

had chemistry today.
quite alright though.
we were suppose to choose 2 questions out of 3 in the section C.
i do do do,
turned to the next page,
i saw the periodic table.
and i'm like..
"HUH? where's section C!?"
HA!
i've done all 3 questions.
chose 2 and 3 in the end,
cause' i feel much more confident about it.
didnt know that yilian did the same thing too!
HA HA HA!!

after the papers,
i went to throw some un-used stuffs,
i almost bumped into irene lim,
looked at her,
she gave me this weird expression,
like.. "uh-huh" kinda expression.


miss lim: so how was the paper?
ME: err.. okok la.
miss lim: so i expect an A1 from my Chemistry rep ah?
ME: huh? how can like that?!
miss lim: of cause can like that! you're my Chemistry rep afterall
miss lim: i shall and will be STRICT in your paper! *smile*
ME: eee! dont like that la.
ME: mark mine not-so-lenient.

i realised i've said the wrong things :/

miss lim: OKAY! so i'll mark yours NOT-SO-LENIENT!
ME: nono! sorry!! paiseh, said the wrong thing.
ME: mark mine LENIENT!!

ahh.. i'm so scared.
she might pinpoint out my every single spelling errors too.
ahh..
communication breakdown.
hoho.

went to mac for breakfast after the chem papers.
went with jessie, samantha, puifun, jie, clara, shenglong and joelle.
joelle & i were blabbering about the fnn papers non-stop.
she's gonna pass the papers with flying colours for SURE (:

went over to jessie's after school.
watched a movie,
i think its callled,
"the texas saw massacare"
not sure, something like that.
shows about a group of people,
travelling around texas,
met some crazy guy on the road,
picked him up.

then this guy took a guy's knife,
held this on his palm,
and used force to press the knife onto his palm,
therefore slitting it.
he kept laughing to himself,
like a siao kin na,
we're like,
GROSS!
after that, he grabbed a guy's arms and dug the knife deep into his skin.

seriously,
after seeing this horrifying scene,
i'll NEVER cut myself EVER again.
and thats the truth!


puifun's birthday's nearing,
next month.
she did mention that she love mac's hotcakes.
i was thinking of making some pancakes for her.
although i know that my standard is far from mac's,
but, its the thought that counts!
just hope that it turn out to be edible.


在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果
爱情是个梦而我睡过头

喜欢一个人
有快乐的时候，
也有伤心的一刻.

我要快乐,
我要快乐,
我要快乐!

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TOO BAD.
dont talk to me,
i'm ignoring you (:

An act or instance of such falseness,
is that what you are implying on?


I LOVE SDA'S CHIAM SEE TONG,
I LOVE WP'S LOW THIA KHIANG,
I LOVE WP'S SLYVIA LIM!!

but i'm so disappointed with Aljunied GRC,
Workers' Party didnt win..
i wanted so badly for WP to win instead of PAP.


am i really that vulgar?
do you really think that i want people to hear what i'm saying?
do you think i said all those things,
just because i wanted attention?
no,
ABSOLUTELY NO.
i just have some problems regarding on how to manage my anger.
i tend to burst out words unexpectedly,
i did not see that coming either.

i seriously DONT care if those people who have views on my vulgarities,
but i do care about ME being happy or unhappy.

at most,
i'll try not to swear again.
or most probably,
i'll never swear again.


[edit]
WOW.
i'm surprised.
i'm seriously seriously surprised.
dont know whether to rejoice or engulf,
but,
oh wells :/
[/edit]


she drifting aprt from us,
havent you notice ?
its so obvious (:


my conscience is clear,
i have no guilt in me,
i'm not guilty,
i'm NEVER guilty.

thoughts aroused my mind;
memories flashed back


i suddenly remembered.
on my mum's birthday last year.. november,
i was at some place, turf city i think
i was walking back to the car,
when a family walked past me.

some girl kept looking at me,
so i looked back at her.
so the both of us kept staring at each other.

i guess it's because she's wearing the school's orientation tee,
while i'm wearing the guides tee.

well guess who's that girl?
that was his secondary 1's ex.

HA HA HA.
how funny.

its actually just a simple problem,
yet, it became a major one.
i dont take sides,
but i know whats right and whats wrong.


chinese was quite okay.
i did gong han instead of shi han.
although i did study for both.

after hearing what you have said,
i began to wonder,
was it a threat?
or was it just something you shouldnt have said.
either ways,
you shouldnt have threatened us,
that wouldnt have helped us in any way,
it will just do more harm than good,
trust me (:

friends are much more important than anything else.

i'm glad some people remembered what i've said.
thanks jessie for that sms ytd night!
i was feeling really really dull at that moment.
thanks! [: [: [:

had maths remedial after our chinese papers.
saw jessie looking a paper.
curious, went to have a look.

guess what?
the paper contains information about our E. maths results.
sometimes i wonder,
how on earth do mdm chang mark our paper so quickly?
its like, one day,
*poof*
finished marking.

i passed my paper 1,
failed paper 2 by 1 mark.
overall, i did pass.
but, i dont really expect this kinda result.
i dont wish to speak my grade out,
but i did pass.

next obstacle,
physics, A. maths & chemistry.
its so stupid.
i suck at both 3 subjects,
i suck at physics and A. maths,
and the best thing is,
both paper falls on the same day, monday.
wth?


I'M SERIOUSLY VERY VERY FUCKED UP,
OH WAIT,
WHO'S FUCKING MOUTH IS THIS?
YES, I GUESS YOU KNOW THE ANSWER,
MINE! ITS MY BLOODY MOUTH,
SO WHY BOTHER?
I'M TALKING TO MR KERK,
WAIT, ARE YOU A MAN NOW?
IS YOUR SURNAME CALLED KERK?
NO RIGHT? SO SHUT THE FUCK UP LAH.
ITS MY BLOODY OWN PROBLEM,
I SAY WHATEVER I WANT TO SAY,
AND THERES NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO STOP MY BLOODY MOUTH FROM SPOUTING NONSENSE.
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO KEEP ADDING FUEL TO MY PROBLEMS,
STOP MESSING THINGS UP FOR ME.
I'M ALREADY VERY PISSED WITH MY OWN PROBLEMS,
WHAT DO YOU THINK?
YOU THINK THAT I DONT HAVE MY OWN PERSONAL PROBLEMS?
AND STOP CRYING FOR GOD'S SAKE.
YOU PASSED YOUR E. MATHS FOR FUCKING GOD SAKE,
WHY CRY?
SYMPATHY? ATTENTION SEEKING?
OH WHAT THE HELL.
YOU'RE THE ONE WHO LEFT PUIFUN ALONE,
LEFT ALL YOUR FRIENDS FOR SOME FUCKING BOYS,
IF YOU LIKE GUYS SOOO MUCH,
WHY DONT YOU BRING THEM HOME?
OR JUST CHANGE YOUR GENDER.

oh fuck,
getting so mad for no reason.

i cannot stand people.
i cannot stand anyone.
i cannot stand people who cry,

but i do LOVE people who laughs with me (:

i thought that you would have took the initiative to do it.
but i should have guessed,
how wrong i was, so terribly wrong.
i shouldnt have been so gullible,
i should have known.
i was lying to myself,
i tried to delude myself,
i tried to make me feel happy.

but i should have known,
that it would not have worked out the way i wanted it to be,
so why continue deceiving myself?

when i know that i'm going to get hurt in the end?
everything i've sacrificed,

just isnt worth it anymore.


cant believe i fell sick.
shit. T__T


had fnn today.
its like.. a pile of SHIT.
actually it isnt that bad, it wasnt that difficult either.

studied till 1 yesterday.
dad scolded me for studying too long.
now, thats a history,
never in my life i've heard my dad scolding me for studying too long.
i secretly took my fnn textbook,
brought it to my bedroom,
off the lights,
changed my hp's option,
the backlight, from 30 seconds to 10 mins,
and started revising in the dark.

i dont know why,
i'm super afraid about my fnn papers.
i didnt want to flunk it, esp fnn (:

about half of what i've studied,
didnt come out.
instead, what i didnt read came out.

overall, it was quite okay.


i hate it whenever you guys leave me alone.
not them,
them.
her.
he.
you only came to me when you did not have someone to hang out with.
it sucks lah,
it seems like i've been used by you guys.
i dread going to elective lessons.
PUI!


thanks suhayl,
i really needed that today..
thanks for cheering me up!
thanks again (:


FUCK YOU ISMAIL.
FUCK YOU.
STOP THE FUCKING LANGUAGE OF YOURS,
STOP MAKING FUN OF PEOPLE'S SIZE,
NOW, WHY DONT YOU GO CRAWLING BACK TO THE FUCKING HOUSE OF YOURS,
INSTEAD OF JUST LOITERING AT MY HOUSE'S VOID DECK,
SMOKING, I SUPPOSE?
DONT YOU HAVE YOUR MALAY LANGUAGE TMR?
FUCK YOU,
SERIOUSLY,
FUCK YOU, STOP SAYING PEOPLE FAT.
KNN. YOU MAKE ME FUMMING MAD.


choices are what you've made,
what you've decided in the end.
so dont come crying to me if yours failed.
i dont fricking care.


may i have the last dance?

To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all a part of the choices that you're making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here.


paper 1 was quite okay.
except for the 2 stinking graphs that we were told to sketch out.
initally, i was correct,
but, i've changed it during the last minute.
OH FUCK.
1 mark lost.

i should have trust my first instincts.
oh what the hell.

paper 2 suck like hell.
once mdm chang came in the class,
the whole class's hands were up in the air,
sending a sos to mdm chang.
HA!
including me of cos.

i prefer 20 questions for 50 marks than 6 marks for 50 marks.


combined hum. tmr
i was practically reading the WHOLE chapter of history again.
i prefer social studies to history,
social studies is much more interesting than history.


i was super hyper yesterday.
i couldnt sleep.
i kept thinking that there was a wide-eyed ghost with its wide-opened mouth opened beside me, watching my every move.
ahhh.. my imagination..
how lame..


2 down,
2 more orals and 5 more papers to go


i guess i cant change history cant i?
i guess i cant find out the truth cant i?
i guess i cant really understand what has been going on cant i?
i guess fantasies arent meant to be a reality huh?



so i,
close my eyes,
let the whole thing pass me by.

may 1st.
time flies..
i just remembered,
i was hoping to get to know him during the dec holis
well, my wish came true
it happened in jan :D


i just got some shocking news,
not that shocking to you guys,
but shocking to me,
happened about a few days ago..

most people knew who i was refering to,
in 1 of my previous entry,
about that girl and that guy.
i think the word, "that" sounds mean.
so i'll rephrase it,
"she and he"
oh well..
i am abit TOO obvious in my words.

i apologise.
i doubt that you'll reading this but yeah,
sorry.


i shall blog happy stuffs from now on.
at least, i'll try to blog some happy stuffs.

mummy bought me a new notebook,
a really really thick one.
a black coloured one.

i have used up 4 thick ones from the starting of this year till now.
heh.. i love "spamming" my notebooks (:

i seriously hate those people from other countries adding me in msn,
namely,
nigerian, china, texas, new orlean, united states.. etc etc.
i'm NOT being racist or anything.
but, out of 40 people who have added me,
10% are perverts.
20% are irritating me.

PERVERTS.

"Joyce, wo ai ni!"
"wanna see my huge dick?"
"*Nudge*"
"*Nudge*"
"*Nudge*"
"*Nudge*"
"can you reply me?"
"can talk to me?"
"are you there?"
"are you from singapore?"
"oh you are so cute!"

quoted by them.

I AM NOT CUTE FOR GOD SAKE,
SOUNDS SO YUCKY WHEN PEOPLE SAY THAT.

i cannot stand people who keeps nudging me,
no, i do not hate people who nudge me.
but for people whom i do NOT know,
dont nudge me for people i dont know,
i'll get mad, and i'll block you.
hoho.

once again,
I'M NOT A RACIST.
thats why i blocked them.

one of them even showed his THING in his display picture.
EW, EW, EW, EW!!


having E maths on tues, which is tmr.
i'm gonna work hard and pass it!
yay me!


i'm turning in.
its 0204 now.

bye people!